Here's the thing and I've been thinking this one out for a bit. For one I didn't want to come off as some dumb person just saying God isn't real. Two I wanted to make sure that what I was going to say was going to come off how I felt it needed to. My problem with God is why does he require us to ask for forgiveness from him but expect us to forgive those that wronged us. Is this not a two way street? Should he not freely forgive me regardless of my transgression. Shouldn't my sins be forgiven and forgotten withbout any input from me. I think so thus one problem I have with the guy upstairs. After this I have a problem with his whole give and take system. One why is it he seems to punish those that make some effort while the ones that do nothing at all get nothing at all. For instance one set of parents lose a child due to a serious problem while a crack whore down the street flat backs it one more time for another hit while her neglected 3 yr old sits in the other room crying and starving for attention. What the hell is that all about. Great make an example. Punish the worthy give the worthless all they ask for. I asked a pastor one time and his answer was that the worthless get earthly rewards while the faithful get theirs in heaven. Great gifts I can't use til I'm dead. Which is a segway into my last rant. What is the point of heaven and hell. My thoughts have led me to this side of the tracks. Heaven iks supposed to be a reward for living your life according to his rules yet in heaven I have come to the understanding we will be worshipping god constantly wow what a reward yeah I worshipped you to get here now I gotta worship constantly. Jeez a little self centered aren't we. Also with hell being a punishment I am going to be dead. I am under the impression that pain and pleasure are just chemical reactions or signals from the brain, correct me if I am wrong but the brain dies when you are dead right. So along with said death goes pain and pleasure so hell should not have an affect on me. Keyword is should I have not died and went to either yet so I am not certain just using the information I have here. Later I am off to be my wicked self again.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
I have almost come to the conclusion that I have lost all faith in religion in general. Here recently I have found myself reading books based on religous beliefs. The few books I have read include a book titled jesus for the non religious. This book goes into detail about how jesus may have been a real person but not a god. Instead it points out how that in the time of the bible grammar wasn't what we see today so that when they tried to describe the acts of jesus they come off a little more than what they were. It also points out how a lot of the new testament was written at least a decade after the crucifixion of jesus. They didn't really have historians in the sense that we have so a lot of the bible is just one guys memory of what happened and we all know how memories go. The other points are that a lot of the bible is just repeats of things they read from what we refer to as the old testament. Another book which I suggest for everyone to read being Corey Taylor's "Seven Deadly Sins". This book goes into how all the deadly sins are utter bullshit and are actually what push us to be the people we ar today. For instance we all think of glutney as over eating or glutens for punishment when in actuallity we arfe all glutens for everything from money to fame. We crave the attention. So after reading this book I realized wow religions just set us up to fucking fail every day . The last book that I am reading now would be the satanic bible. Now I know what you are thinking and no its not devil worship. Its about accepting that you are human just a bigger sometimes better animal and that as such we have carnal needs and wants and why should we not try to fulfill those said ants and needs if they aren't hurting anyone else. Do what you want livelife to the fullest fuck everyone else looking down on you from their high horse and just fucking be that's what I plan on doing if I die tomorrow I want to go down in a blaze of I did it instead of a stack of wish I would haves. That's all I got for now. Later.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Despite what i have and will do in life there is at least two things I have done right in life, my kids. This is my, I suppose letter to them. Aiden Jacoby and Zoe Jane.
I want you to know this much I know you cant read the day I am writing this but someday you will be able to. No matter what happens in life know that there will always be at least two people who love you. Despite what others may say they will always be there by your side no matter what when you are down we will be there to pick you up and dust you off, we may even travel the road with you a bit to keep you company. Or we'll be there to hoist you high up to a level normally thought to be unattainable or just to let your light shine brightly above the crowd. There are gonna be times when you may feel shame for who you are or who we are but dont fret no one on earth is better than you at being you so just do that. Be a higher class citizen except everyone for who they are and dont look at who they arent. Give when you can and youll reap the same when you are in need. Brush people that hate on you or your choices to the side move on and forget about em they arent worth your worry. Dont be afraid to give yourself away to someone else they may hurt you but life isnt going to end because of it. Last but not least Never say someone is out of your league let them decide that dont do it for them. Love you . Love dad. P.s. Mom too but she doesnt have a blog.